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1. |
Outside (Intro)
01:26
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Outside
I believe I
Am in love, I
Have learnt all, I
Need to know, I
Will stay outside
Till I find my
Peace of mind, I
Am in love, I
Don’t believe I
Will ever find
Her but I’ll try
To forget.
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2. |
Sleeping
04:11
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I went to bed with a broken soul,
And saw an angel at my open door,
I shook my head and told him I was done.
Cos I'm barely sleeping,
Oooh, life is such a waste of time.
I’m bending and breaking,
How many times I have to tell you? I am fine.
I left this world of sorrow behind,
To a Beulah where the girls are kind,
And I am lying in my lover’s arms,
But only when I’m sleeping,
Oooh, life is such a waste of time.
I’m hurting and hating,
How many times I have to tell you? I’m fine.
How dare you tell me I should run into my fears and hide?
These bruises aren’t only in my mind!
How dare you tell me I should live my life not wondering why
I cannot find a soul to call mine.
I’ve left my bed stained wide more than enough times
To know I’m drowning in an ocean and I’ve no idea why,
And I can’t control my actions, not as hard as I try,
I’m alright. I’m alright. I’m alright.
Cos I'm barely sleeping,
Oooh life is such a waste of time,
I’m falling and I'm failing,
How many times I have to tell you? I am fine.
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3. |
Never Be
03:55
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You make a good case that we’re meant to be,
You set out your argument so well.
I can see the passion burning in your eyes,
Hotter, hotter than hell.
I love your sense of humour,
And I could deal with your frightened approach.
And what you can’t see are the demons in me,
And the burning of my self-reproach.
Because I, like you, desire perfection,
We’ve only this one time on Earth,
So I’m still holding out for that other love,
No matter what it may be worth.
I too have fought for a lover,
I too have fought and have lost.
You’re not the first and you won’t be the last,
To lose everything that you’ve got.
Tangled as tree roots are our connections,
We’re all chasing after what we can’t get,
And as the springtime of youth progresses,
We’re each left with second-best.
And if only I loved you I’d sweep you away,
To a paradise here on Earth,
But I’m still holding out for that other love,
I’m still holding on for my second birth.
And I’m sorry I called round, and I’m sorry it’s over,
And I’m sorry that it will never be,
It will never be for me and never be for you,
Never be, never be, never be.
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Some nights I feel dry,
Empty in heart and mind,
And I just gotta keep in what’s inside.
And when I’m laid in bed,
Thoughts of Hell in my head,
And from your mouth these piles of shit,
Well I don’t want to talk about it.
And if I turn to leave
Before you’ve called time,
Know your worries are all far far worse than mine.
But it doesn’t really matter,
I’m far too gone to make things fit,
This whirlpool of emotion will consume me,
And I don’t want to talk about it.
I don’t want to tell you how I feel.
Because we’ve said enough,
And you’ve told me who I am,
And how you could never hold someone so keen to be held.
But we’re in love,
It’s just that you can’t see it.
And I just want you to tell me it’s true,
But I don’t want to talk about it.
I don’t want to tell you how I feel.
I don’t want to talk about it.
I don’t want to tell you how I feel.
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5. |
Enlightenment
03:27
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There’s something about tonight.
I don’t know what it is.
Just ain’t feeling right.
Just ain’t up to it.
What have I become?
There’s no emotion in this heart.
God knows what I’ve done,
To make the desolation start.
I’m on the brink of destruction.
I’m on the brink of enlightenment.
I’m on the brink of destruction.
I’m on the brink of enlightenment.
I sleep when I want,
I read when I need to.
I get what I deserve,
And I listen to the street.
But when I thought hard,
It didn’t feel like myself.
Staring at my PC,
Asking for answers.
I’m on the brink of destruction.
I’m on the brink of enlightenment.
I’m on the brink of destruction.
I’m on the brink of enlightenment.
Once I was sad,
Now I’m only ironic.
I’m drowning in sound.
My parts are bionic.
Repetitive strain,
Degrees in the circle.
It’s calling again,
But the volume has hurtled.
Enlighten me, enlighten me!
Enlighten me, free me…
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6. |
Love You Back
03:02
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I may look like someone slammed a door into my face,
I may walk like some maniac broke my back,
And I may dress like I ain’t ever seen a mirror in my life,
But you could love me anyway,
You could love me all the same,
You could love me anyway.
I may talk like the bastard son of some businessman,
Though I may act like I’m not exposed to etiquette,
And I may cry like I ain’t ever seen a human soul in all my life.
But you could love me anyway,
You could love me all the same,
You could love me anyway.
‘Cause I love you back,
I love you back.
I may follow you like I’m waiting for the moment to abduct,
My talk falls flat ‘cause I am just too scared that I will offend you.
And I may stare at you like I ain’t ever seen a girl in all my life.
But you could love me anyway,
You could love me all the same,
You could love me anyway.
‘Cause I love you back,
I love you back.
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7. |
Flying Islands
03:36
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Once upon a night I had a dream
Where I was sailing through the silent sky,
And happened upon a paper plane,
And through the clouds I was floating turrets come by.
A flying city in a storm,
Filled with debris and skeletons,
The islands I treasured most,
My Norloch, my Laputa, my Sanctaphrax.
And dreaming on a high academy,
I made out the outline of young prosperity.
The place I hid when the world was too big,
The things I learnt I’m not learning.
To teach me a dream is to teach me to die,
I’m only falling through clouds; nothing’s breaking my flight.
There’s not a page in the lore that I treasure so dear
That’ll teach me how to love you here.
Sanctaphrax, what have I become?
Sanctaphrax, who taught me how to be young?
Tell them to see me again,
I’m leaving this, I’m coming back, I won’t begin.
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8. |
Outside (Outro)
01:06
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Outside
I believe I
Am in love, I
Have learnt all, I
Need to know, I
Will stay outside
Till I find my
Peace of mind, I
Am in love, I
Don’t believe I
Will ever find
Her but I’ll try
To forget.
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Toby Jackson York, UK
Toby Jackson is a singer-songwriter in York, but also Cambridge.
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